Monday, May 17, 2010
Better late than never.... If There Was a Cure...
I have had quite a week. Taylar has been on the pump for 6 days now and the tiredness and newness is taking a toll on me. I had every intention of taking part in the daily diabetes blog, but I just couldn't keep up. I had a good cry yesterday, pulled myself up off the floor, put it behind me and feel a bit better today. Eventhough blog week is over, I have to participate in the "if there was a cure" day.
I would no longer pray for a cure, but instead praise God that one was found!
I would sleep soundly at night and not become stressed if Taylar slept in a bit in the morning.
I wouldn't hate myself for leaving small bruises on Taylar's arms and buttocks from giving her injections.
I would re-gain a kitchen cabinet that right now it stocked wtih diabetes supplies.
I wouldn't withhold or force food based on what blood sugar numbers are on the meter.
In fact, I would throw away our meters, lancets, lancing devices, test strips for glucose and ketones, control solution, pods, insulin, alcohol wipes, pens, glucose tabs, glucagon, syringes, and anything else I missed.
I would erase the phone number to Children's Hospital from my memory.
I would not panic if I left the house during the day and left my cell phone on the counter by mistake.
I would drop Taylar off at her friends' houses or at their birthday parties without having to give explanations or just staying myself.
I would let Taylar swim, jump, run, and dance for twelve hours straight if she wanted to and not once stop her to do a test or drink juice.
I would not hear another child ask, "Hey, what's that thing?" in reference to Taylar's new pump.
I would not cry as often as I sometimes do.
I would not miss filling out paperwork for school and activities that include a heatlh history. It would be like it used to be....blank.
I would enjoy cooking and baking again because I wouldn't have to worry about the carb counts of foods.
I would never look up food in Calorie King anymore!
I would take the kids out for hot fudge sundaes and only leave the house with my wallet. No supplies.
I would be overjoyed and thankful.
at 11:27 AM